Enlisting support

Something that is dramatically different about my current weight loss focus, is the fact that I have enlisted the help of my best friend, and felt brave enough to mention it to a few other people that I thought might be encouraging. In the past, I have tended to play my cards very close to my chest, due to believing that inevitably I will fail, and the people I tell will be looking at me, scrutinizing to see if change has occurred, and I will disappoint them as well as myself. Looking at it that way, I see how my past attempts have gone down in flames. I had the wrong attitude from the beginning. If you believe you will fail, you will not succeed.

So far, having the support is pretty great. I'm on vacation in Atlanta, but Kim carefully picked out healthy recipes before I arrived, and we are eating delicious, healthy food, in appropriate servings. More than that, having someone remind you of your goals and speak positively that you will reach them, is empowering. I have learned in the past experiences that my will is very breakable, and at some point I'm going to lose my resolve and just want to go back to the old routine which was comfortable, and yummy. It's nice knowing there is a third party I can now call when that seems overwhelming, who can hopefully get me pointed back in the right direction.

Kimmy has no scale at her house, so I haven't been able to tell if any weight loss is ocurring, but making the good choices we've made, I feel confident that at least no gains have been made. That's a pretty awesome feeling for vacation, normally vacations are when I "let loose" and REALLY just do whatever as far as health or nutrition goes.

I'm also attempting to not get comfortable or complacent, by reading or watching things that remind me of my journey at hand. I'm currently reading a novel called Conversations with The Fat Girl, and I saw an ad for a show on Bravo starting tonight called Heavy. I wonder if I can get online and watch it from there once I go back home. Seeing others on their journey is encouraging, too.

I envision success for myself. I can see me sticking it out. I'll never dream of becoming like a size 2, but I want the days of X-Large and double digit jean sizes to conclude. A healthier me is happening. =)