Today I've felt like I was scraping at the bottom of my willpower barrel. It's about that time. That time that my typical "successful" weight loss attempts have slipped quietly away, as I secretly hope that others will forget what I was supposed to be working on. I feel resistance towards heading to the gym, and I REALLY want a cheeseburger! I stayed up way too late watching Law and Order SVU on netflix, and woke up late. I ate tacos for lunch, and spent much of the day contemplating skipping my workout.
I think I wanted so badly to skip my workout because today was supposed to be the start of a new routine: cardio plus 30 minutes of weight training, instead of doing sets of 10, I was supposed to do each exercise for 1 minute, and try to not leave much gap space between exercises. Sounds pretty unpleasant to me.
I got a cancellation for my latest appointment of the day, and decided to go home and get this thing out of the way already, being tired of even spending the mental energy on hating what I needed to do before I even started! So I came home. And I did this thing that I do in my head whenever I don't feel like doing something. Rather than thinking about the task at hand, I ask myself, "What's step 1?" Step 1 is find your workout clothes. Step 2, change into them. Etc, etc.
And so I tricked myself into walking into the gym, and then a miracle of willpower happened! I said..."You know what? Screw it. I'm going to beat my running record for last year, right freaking now." Last year I spent a few months preparing for a 5k, and never really ended up being able to run a full 5k, but at the peak of my preparations I was able to run 2 miles without stopping, which I hadn't done since college. So I got on the treadmill and killed it. I did 2.1 miles. =) Deuces, 2010 record!
I then started the weight routine. And...it BURNED! I was going to work on my core, but I didn't see any machines for your core, and there was an attractive guy in the area where I normally do crunches/ab stuff, so I settled on focusing on my arms for today. I didn't do the full 30 minutes. But I'm OK with that, this time. I did three 45 second wall sits, three 1 minute intervals of tricep whatever's, 3 1 min intervals of bicep curls, 2 minutes of rowing, and 2 minutes of lateral pull-downs. I didn't exactly SMASH the weights today, but sticking out the weights for one minute was tiring. I know that muscles are torn, and progress will occur. And probably pain will ensue!
Anyway...today started feeling like the beginning of the end of this whole ordeal. But somehow, I proved something to myself. I can, even when I don't feel like it. And I need to find more ways to "fill up" on health and fitness motivation, because scraping the bottom of my barrel is not a good day-to-day for this journey.
Eating: Breakfast ~ nutrigrain bar, almonds Lunch~ 3 tacos (meh) Dinner ~ To be determined, probably chicken italiano appetizer's (healthier than the name sounds)
Workout: You already heard all about it!
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